28 WEEKS!!!!

I look at the title to this post and I can't believe it...we've made it to 28 weeks. I have been in the hospital for 3 weeks.

For the last 3 weeks, James' Mom has been with us. She has helped James out tremendously--cooking, cleaning, getting the kids ready, etc. She's just jumped in and done it all...but she's also helped me out--we've laughed over stories (like when she "helped" me breath while in labor with Hayden) she taught me how to crochet so I won't drain our bank account on jewelry supplies. She has helped keep me entertained while the kids have been at school. Joni is getting on a plane in about 3 hours and going home and I will admit I'm sad (most people won't say that about their mother-in-laws but I have the best MIL out there). She has been wonderful and has sacrificed a lot to come out here to help us, but it's time (we keep joking that I will probably go into labor tonight since she's now gone) :) -- I hope not. There are things she has to get done back at home and I think we've gotten ourselves organized to our new "norm" for the time being.

With that said, life is about to get a little bit more hectic for James. This is the hardest part of being on bed rest for me....I'm not good at releasing control (you didn't know that about me did you??) Really I just don't like the thought of James having to carry the burden of being single parent. Without having family nearby it makes it a bit more difficult...but we are blessed with friends that have stepped in and filled the gap. I am so thankful for the meals that have been brought...having the grass mowed...taking the kids so that we can have some time for just us (even if it's in a hospital). We don't take it for granted...not for a minute.

So, where are we at with Tyler? We don't know. Most pprom (preterm premature rupture of membranes) patients deliver within the first week to two weeks if they don't go into labor within 48 hours after rupture. We're at 3 weeks.
We will go until one of 4 things happen: #1 I go into labor #2 I get an infection #3 Tyler shows distress (which hasn't occurred and isn't really a concern at this point) #4 I hit the 34 week mark...then they will induce or perform c-section. Currently, sweet little Tyler is sitting breech...and he's not listening to his mama about turning back into position. We have another ultrasound tomorrow and I will resort to bribing if I have to. :) If we're looking at odds...(which we don't put much stock in 'ODDS') but the likelihood says an infection will set it and will either cause labor to start or the doctors will start labor. But who knows what will happen?? I may be one of the few that go 9 weeks on bed rest and deliver at 34 weeks.

Have I mentioned I'm a planner? Yeah, I know...I am...even with all this I'm still trying to figure it out how it's going to work...how the plan is going to come together. I haven't gotten very far. It's not all my fault really--I mean I'm sitting in a bed looking at the ceiling so what else do I have to do but to try to figure it out?? Yes, I'm well aware at this point that whatever I do "figure out" will change, but it's worth a shot.

We are so happy to have made it to 28 weeks...at times I think we're out of the woods, but I know that we still have quite a road ahead of us. I guess when you're in the midst of it you can be a little naive to everything else...I'm thinking that's God's protection for my sanity. Above everything else we know God is in control of this...we know that this pregnancy was not a mistake, it wasn't even a surprise to Him although it was to us. We know that all that we've went thru during the first part of the pregnancy He kept Tyler safe...and now here we are--and we're facing this different hurdle but we know it's all in His hands. I'm not saying that its a guarantee everything will turn out like we want it to....but I am saying it will turn out exactly as He has planned. Don't get me wrong--it scares me to think of things not turning out like we want it to--I actually can't really dwell on that possibility at this point, but no matter what it doesn't change who we believe God to be.

Hayden and Abby are doing pretty good. I'm trying to spend time with each of them by themselves. We usually watch a movie (it's the only time Abby is quiet) :) I think they are starting to miss me though...which secretly I am a little bit glad for...yes, I know that's selfish. :)
I have said this over and over...but I am so glad they are older and can be a bit independent, my heart goes out to Moms on bed rest with small children at home.

Okay, I think that about covers it...see if I'd blog more often I wouldn't have to write a novel for each post.